Trust, Wait - Stand!

I am sitting here wondering, ‘what?’ It is one of those days when you want a particular kind of man- one that fits just so. I hope I am not about to get into trouble.

Truth is, no man fits... just so- except in novels. Subject to the whims and caprices of the author, a magnificent man is created- the Ideal! 

Usually, being a woman, she can capture it so succinctly that it appeals to the hearts of women all over. What chance do real life men have?

Here I am, indoctrinated to the hilt with a faux pas sense of reality- when it comes to romance, anyway.

Gradually, like the scales off the back of a fish, the scales fall off my eyes. Like the layers off an onion, lies are peeled back- but not fast enough.

I want to be saved from these lies sooner, faster. I fear that I would fall, crumble before my help comes.

But how have I done thus far? I have not helped myself. That which I now know, I did not before and I certainly did not teach myself.

It stands to reason that God is working on me. If not fast enough, then it must be that I now think I can save myself or know better than the One who has been saving me- and if I can save myself, then how? Considering I did not know how to in the first place, is why He got in, in the first place!

Trust! I’m gonna have to trust. Trust that He knows what He is doing. Trust that I am a project in the Hands of the Most High. Trust that if He knew to answer my prayers and come help me, then He knows how to go about it. Trust that since He knows how to go about it, He also knows when, to the last, tiny, perfect moment, is best to perfect every li’l detail.

Wait! I’m gonna have to wait, knowing that He is never late. If He started it, then He will finish it. If He was interested enough to get in, in the first place, then He definitely does not want to mess this up. It means that I can’t possibly want this to be over with, faster or sooner than He does. So if He isn’t rushing, then He must know His Pace is best.

Waiting also involves – Standing!- standing on His Word, His Way, not compromising, just waiting. This is the time when all sorts of poison begin to look like food. You don’t wanna go there- like a beautiful word I once heard- ‘There’s a God-sized hole in your heart, and only God can fill it.’ Let him!

If God has brought me this far, I sure want to see how He ends it. Those other ways haven't worked, anyway!

So I’ll Wait.. Standing on His Word… And Trusting... I’ll wait for Him until my Help comes… Or in this case, until my help is perfected. ;)